I knew today was going to be a bad day. When I woke up this morning to get ready to go running with CJ, I had this really really bad feeling that it was not going to be a good day. Why didn’t I listen to myself? I really should start learning how to do that. We ( Kris, Me, Cj, and Rich) found out that there was a FREE bowling trip tonight, how could we possibly pass it up?

  So after some fancy finangling we all decided that we would go and just chill out and have some fun. So we were basically just chilling in Kris’ room. Cj was playing madden, and Kris had gone to practice and Rich and I were just chilling on the floor. This was when the day started to take a turn for the worse.  

He grabs me by the hips and pulls me close, like usual right before we kiss, and then he flips me over and starts wrestling with me. Which at first I thought was completely hilarious! Then he kept putting me in different wrestling holds, and my body couldn’t take the strain, and then knowing I don’t like the feeling of being in the air, he lifts me up and walks with me in the air around the room. I kept telling him to let me go but he wouldn’t and by the time he set me down, I was hyperventilating. So needless to say I was totally pissed off, and he couldn’t figure out why.

Then it was time to get ready for the bowling trip. So I went to go get ready, and that always includes makeup for me. Then jokingly I told Kris his sink was counterproductive to applying makeup, and Rich makes a comment about why i should wear more make up then I already do. Which just pushed me further, and then when I finally finished getting ready they were fighting over music, to drown them out I go get my MP3, only to find the screen cracked…I had to leave the room and go scream out my frustration in the stairwell. 

 I was willing to let all of this go. All of it, I got into the lobby, and I was getting excited about the trip. Then I get into the bus, and Emily is coming and she sits in the back, so I join her. He sits in the the row in front of pickle and then decides to have pickle switch him spots. Then he proceeds to hang over the seat to talk to me. I look up at him, because I had a fleeting hope that he would apologize for earlier! Then the sentence that falls out of his mouth is and I quote, babe why are you sitting in the back? Ya Know Rosa Parks, and all.. (which was his attempt to get me to sit next to him, I found out later) which just left me so disgusted that I didn’t talk to him the entire car ride. 

This is not the first time he’s said something that was offensive to me. There is a fucking list, but he had other redeeming qualities where I chose to overlook the stupidity. He also has this thing of treating me like the weaker sex, which really pisses me off. When we went for our huge walk down to the railroad tracks, and I lost my keys? He kept picking me out of the group and was like babe keep up, hurry up, quite lagging behind, hold on and wait for gabby. Which really pissed me off because I was right behind him, each time! Tonight, he was criticquing my bowling game. Bowling is the one game I enjoy. Its fun and its okay to lose because it is just bowling.  But does Rich realize this? Of course not, I grab my ball and go up there and he’s like gabby throw the ball straight, don’t cross your arm over. Why don’t you try rolling it with both your hands on the ball? (which he later refers to chickbowling. Which only proved to piss me off further) Then he kept calling my name while I was trying to concentrate, and I was like ignore him and after the 8th time I turned around and was like WHAT DO YOU WANT, and he’s like try to match your ball up with the hash mark so it hits a pin. So even after all that he is still criticquing my game! ARGH! I was just so angry by the time I left! I grabbed the first seat I could, and of course who sits next to me but RICH. 

  He doesn’t seem to realize when someone is upset and would just rather be alone. He wraps his arm around my shoulders and starts whispering apologies in my ear, and that was when I realized that I couldn’t do this anymore. So, when we got back to school I broke it to him, straight up.  And then we agreed that was the end of it.  Until, his snide comment on facebook and Kris running his mouth. 

But I refuse to let it get me down. Now I am single. I have extra time on my hands, and I can finish my homework and focus on my business. Adding the pink insides to the bunny ear hat! Almost finished!

xoxo

Kousagii