A guy that I’ve been seeing on and off for almost two years now, came over yesterday, and we were just having fun and watching movies and we got onto the subject of our relationship. I thought it was pretty clean cut. I was his girlfriend, I wasn’t dating or interested in anyone else, and neither was he. We had each other, and even though our parents didn’t know because of the simple fact, that his would probably hang me if they knew, I thought we were pretty committed. 

 Apparently, that is not the case. He brought up the topic of marriage. NOT ME. He brought up that we weren’t ready. I’m always challenging him when he tells me no, so I asked what his reasoning was for this. We weren’t financially and emotionally ready for A commitment, his exact words, Not that KIND of commitment, A commitment, and if that is the case then what the fuck have we been doing for the last two years?

So I sat straight up and looked him in the eyes and replied quietly, that if he wasn’t ready to commit he should just say so. And he nodded that that was the case. I like his honesty but it cut me so deep. We’ve been dating for almost two years, I have battled so much in that time, I have sacrificed so much for you. and now you’re not even sure if you want to be in a committed relationship with me? Really?

 How do you think that makes me feel? That was two days ago, and he has yet to talk to me since then.

This week is starting just swimmingly.