I don’t know how long you guys have been reading me. I don’t know if you guys even actually bother to read me, or if my readers are people who follow me and able to be updated on every little thing I post, or if their people who just wander the everendless web and come across me on a whim, either way I appreciate you. And if you guys actually do pay attention you’ll know a few things about me. Perhaps the biggest one is that I’m a huge fan of social Media and possibly the second biggest one is I blog. A lot, if it’s not here then its at my home blog which I’ve had since freshman year in high school. 

 One of my biggest issues now, is finding the motivation to blog anymore. I’m not a high schooler, I’m not even a homeschooler, I don’t have any super serious issues like whether Kyle Peterson really likes me or not, or what my social skills will be like once I escape Homeschooled Hell hole. Don’t get me wrong I still have boy troubles, But I feel like my life has grown beyond my blog and I can’t find the motivation to write any more. 

 Which wouldn’t be too much of a problem, if I didn’t constantly have the urge to write! Literally , it  is there every day all day long, and it just gets bigger and bigger and bigger. You don’t know how many draft blog entries I have just waiting to be finished, just waiting to be posted. I feel like my life has grown up without me, and there are so many things that I want to do and I want to see that have already passed me by. I’m not saying that the things that have passed me by are serious/life-threatening occurances but they are important to ME and it kills ME that I haven’t had them. 

 I know to everyone else they don’t seem like much, but the difference is all of those people got to experience them. I just feel like I’m not a good blogger anymore. I work all day and all night, and the time I do get to blog I can’t take good pictures because its so fucking late at night, and I’m tired and schedules are getting ruined and the time I do spend is barely enough to keep up with anything. Blogging, my social life, my knitting projects are stacking up by the dozens. 

I just don’t have the motivation to keep blogging.  I hope it comes back soon. Blogging is one of the only things I have in my life that have never left me.