I went out with John* today. We went to the arcade and he like wrapped his arms around my waist but someone walks by and he drops me like a bad habit. I tried to hold his hand and he literally shook me off like he didn’t want to touch me. I mean, how interested can you be if you don’t wanna touch me? I mean, I don’t know of anyone who has a working relationship where they don’t touch each other. I just don’t understand why everyone I’m not interested in is interested in me and the one tt I actually like isn’t sure he’s interested or he just doesn’t care. I just feel like why do I fucking bother?

 Like the thing with Jack*. We went on multiple dates and I haven’t heard from him since he came over. Like I just don’t get it. What did I do wrong? What have I done wrong? Everyone just stops talking to me. No one else knows how it feels to be rejected time and time again, to be told that I JUST DON’T LIKE YOU.over and over again. And then I look around and see that I am ultimately the nicest person I know, and everyone else is a mess, a wreck just the cruelest people ever, and they have healthy relationships, they actually have someone that cares for them, and I can’t get a single guy to hold my hand?

  I just don’t know anymore, it really just has to be me. It really does. 

Depressed,

Spokhette