Its been a while since I’ve done a text post here. Usually those are reserved for Nerdette At Large over on Blogger, but I just had to get this off my chest. I am so so so so so nervous right now. In about 2 hours I’m going to be on skype recording for a podcast that I’ve become a part of for 2017 and I am so anxious that I’m beginning to sweat. My heels hurt, my voice is becoming scratchy and I am having trouble breathing. 

 I do not want to be nervous. I’m telling my family and they are like but don’t you do this all the time? Sort of but not really. I don’t film my videos in the house when Alex is there, I’m too nervous. I can also edit my youtube videos to hell and back, or just re-record them if I don’t like the way they look.

 I’m unable to do that with podcasts. Plus its not MINE, I’m becoming a part of someone else’s podcast, I’m going to become part of someone else’s brand. I really don’t want to fuck that up, what if I ruin their podcast? They’ve worked so hard to put time and effort into their product into their brand, but they’ve let in this unsuspecting joe, and what if I MESS UP?! 

 Sure I have my own blog and youtube channel, sure I have my own internet personality and prescence, but nothing as big as this, and nothing as big as being part of someone else’s brand. I’m on banners and posters and shit, like What if I MESS UP YA”LL?????